EVA 终·希望的疾病

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“名为希望的光芒永远照耀着人类，但人类也在沉沦，紧紧抓住名为希望的疾病不放”

——冬月耕造

碇源堂，从小就很寂寞，因为觉得人们逢场作戏，不真诚，怕被背叛，所以不与人交往，只是沉浸在自己的世界里，因为自己的世界是可控的。直到遇到唯，唯的光芒照亮了他，但也成了他的名为希望的疾病，直到希望变成绝望。因为渴望被爱，又害怕被伤害，所以寂寞，因为极端的寂寞，所以渴望光，渴望人类灵魂的终极融合。然而，碇源堂，传统意义上缺乏男性魅力的人，唯又是怎么爱上他的呢？

碇真嗣，和他父亲一样，寂寞，渴望被爱，又怕被伤害。不同的是，希望的疾病还没有侵蚀他太深，还有很多人感激他，需要他，爱他，引领他走出封闭，和世界重新建立联系。但如果他不是eva初号机的驾驶员呢？

人，渴望被别人爱，渴望成功，所以对未来充满希望，也因此紧紧抓住名为希望的疾病不放。可这一切其实就是个概率问题。你被不被爱，取决于你有没有遇到善良的人，或者合拍的人；你能不能成功，取决于你有没有天赋，选没选对职业，有没有遇到能激发你无穷动力的东西。当人因为运气不好而越得不到这些的时候，就越渴望，也越胆怯不敢冒险争取，怕被伤害。而只有放下这些渴望并且忘却希望，才能得到终极的自由，自由得去追寻目标，承担损失，以及给予别人爱。 

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